[a little muckraking]

i woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder. and admittedly, I’ve been waking up a lot of mornings with this feeling.

and it stinks. it stinks having negative feelings about things out of your control or to feel anxious about things you don’t really even need to be anxious about. and, as i was explaining to someone last week, it’s not that i’m unhappy. i’m just not at the level of happy i’m usually at. the level where things don’t fluster me. or the level where i’m not a nervous nelly about how things could potentially turn out or constantly pondering the actions of others. 

so, i decided, the only person who can really change how i feel and get me back to my happy-go-lucky self is me. and it starts simply by letting go of those worries. of those things that are making me anxious. and saying there’s so much more to me than these negative things i’m letting float through my head. and to really remind myself that there is absolutely no reason to not be happy right now. because, the fact of the matter is, i’ve rekindled friendships, i’ve pursued more hobbies, i’ve met people who have made me feel beautiful again - in 2.5 months, i’ve changed and grown and haven’t gotten stuck in old habits. and that’s something to be overjoyed about.

so, as january comes to an end (thank goodness!), i’m choosing to be happy. to let go of the things that i truly don’t have control over and to just live. happily.

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