i woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder. and admittedly, I’ve been waking up a lot of mornings with this feeling. and it stinks. it stinks having negative feelings about things out of your control or to feel anxious about things you don’t really even need to be anxious about. and, as i was explaining to someone last week, it’s not that i’m unhappy. i’m just not at the level of happy i’m usually at. the level where things don’t fluster me. or the level where i’m not a nervous nelly about how things could potentially turn out or constantly pondering the actions of others.  so, i decided, the only person who can really change how i feel and get me back to my happy-go-lucky self is me. and it starts simply by letting go of those worries. of those things that are making me anxious. and saying there’s so much more to me than these negative things i’m letting float through my head. and to really remind myself that there is absolutely no reason to not be happy right now. because, the fact of the matter is, i’ve rekindled friendships, i’ve pursued more hobbies, i’ve met people who have made me feel beautiful again - in 2.5 months, i’ve changed and grown and haven’t gotten stuck in old habits. and that’s something to be overjoyed about. so, as january comes to an end (thank goodness!), i’m choosing to be happy. to let go of the things that i truly don’t have control over and to just live. happily.

i woke up this morning with a chip on my shoulder. and admittedly, I’ve been waking up a lot of mornings with this feeling.

and it stinks. it stinks having negative feelings about things out of your control or to feel anxious about things you don’t really even need to be anxious about. and, as i was explaining to someone last week, it’s not that i’m unhappy. i’m just not at the level of happy i’m usually at. the level where things don’t fluster me. or the level where i’m not a nervous nelly about how things could potentially turn out or constantly pondering the actions of others. 

so, i decided, the only person who can really change how i feel and get me back to my happy-go-lucky self is me. and it starts simply by letting go of those worries. of those things that are making me anxious. and saying there’s so much more to me than these negative things i’m letting float through my head. and to really remind myself that there is absolutely no reason to not be happy right now. because, the fact of the matter is, i’ve rekindled friendships, i’ve pursued more hobbies, i’ve met people who have made me feel beautiful again - in 2.5 months, i’ve changed and grown and haven’t gotten stuck in old habits. and that’s something to be overjoyed about.

so, as january comes to an end (thank goodness!), i’m choosing to be happy. to let go of the things that i truly don’t have control over and to just live. happily.

moms I’ve gotten three phone calls and a text message from my mom this morning. She’s taking a girls’ trip and is flying for only the second or third time in her life, I think. And without my dad, which is a rare occurrence - they normally go everywhere together. So, I spent a couple phone calls this week walking her through the whole process: checking in online, either paying for her bag online or at the kiosk, where she needed to go when she got to the airport, what she needed to take out or off while going through security…  It’s funny how things reverse as we get older. She said to me this morning after I asked her to text me when she got on the plane and to call when she landed, “Now you’re the one doing the mothering.” And it’s true. I’m so grateful that I have a great relationship with my mom and am in a place where I can do things to take care of her. It’s nice to be able to pay some of it back.

moms

I’ve gotten three phone calls and a text message from my mom this morning.

She’s taking a girls’ trip and is flying for only the second or third time in her life, I think. And without my dad, which is a rare occurrence - they normally go everywhere together. So, I spent a couple phone calls this week walking her through the whole process: checking in online, either paying for her bag online or at the kiosk, where she needed to go when she got to the airport, what she needed to take out or off while going through security… 

It’s funny how things reverse as we get older. She said to me this morning after I asked her to text me when she got on the plane and to call when she landed, “Now you’re the one doing the mothering.”

And it’s true. I’m so grateful that I have a great relationship with my mom and am in a place where I can do things to take care of her. It’s nice to be able to pay some of it back.

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